I Feel Guilty That I Have a Choice

Earlier today a small group of us went out and served the homeless. It was hot!
In case you don’t know we are in Texas. The temperature right now is reaching at least the mid to high 90’s every day.
I honestly don’t know what the high was today…I just know it was hot.

We went to a number of our normal stops and gave away a lot of drinks, snacks, toilet paper, books and a few socks. After a few hours…we had given away most of the food. Only a few snacks left. The last place to stop was in the heart of the homeless area and I just didn’t feel we had enough. I hate to start handing out stuff then run out. So we called it a day.

Our group got back in our air conditioned cars and chatted on our cell phones and decided where we would go eat lunch.
We sat in an air conditioned restaurant and ate food that was served to us and drank unlimited amounts of cold beverage.

My guilt boiled up when we packed up and drove away from the people who did not have a choice. I was hot, sweaty and uncomfortable. I wanted to take a cool shower and put on clean clothes. The people sitting along the street, trying to stay in the shade, they didn’t have a choice.

I know for many of them it was a string of bad choices that helped them end up on the street. I know I could also end up on the street. But for this moment this is where they are and where I am…and today I felt guilty for having the opportunity to walk away.

11 thoughts on “I Feel Guilty That I Have a Choice

  1. plantingpennies

    Sir, thank you for sharing this part of your life journey. I appreciate writing that shows personal courage and working at living well: may I repost this on my blog?

    Thank you,
    Planingpennies

    Reply
  2. marlandphotos

    I understand! Living in a third world country for 7 years gave us some of the same feelings, trying to find the balance, knowing how to teach them how to fish, and when to give them fish!

    Reply

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